I'm Leaving BYU-Idaho

This is a difficult post to write because I hate disappointing people and I hate feeling like I've failed, but here goes nothing.  

Since finding out that I can't go on a mission, my head has been a jumbled mess. I have no idea what I'm doing anymore or why I'm doing it. My mind has been filled with confusion and as much as I hate to admit it, it has also been overloaded with doubt. The plan I had for my life essentially fell to pieces and I've had to start over. So here I am at 19 years old with not a clue of what I'm doing. 

That being said, I've made the decision on my own to leave Rexburg and go find myself. I'm moving in with some family in Utah and will be taking online classes and working until I can figure out what it is I want out of life. I have to be happy because if I'm not happy, what's the point of living? I know it sounds selfish and dramatic but maybe I am selfish and dramatic. 

All growing up I had my life planned just how I wanted it. I would graduate high school, get my bachelors degree in nursing & then my masters in neonatal nursing. I would get married and have a family and live happily ever after with everything I'd ever want and need. Now I have to accept this new reality and realize that sometimes it's okay to go out of order, or not according to plan at all. 

Anyways, I hope that you can support me in this and understand why I'm making these changes in my life. 

XOXO, 
Your college drop-out.


Comments

  1. AnonymousJuly 15, 2015 at 10:21 AM

    You are very brave Anna. I know that you will go far and do what you need to do to make yourself happy! I believe in you and love you very much! I hope to see you soon, xoxo

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  2. AnonymousJuly 15, 2015 at 10:21 AM

    You are very brave Anna. I know that you will go far and do what you need to do to make yourself happy! I believe in you and love you very much! I hope to see you soon, xoxo

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  3. CaliJuly 15, 2015 at 12:25 PM

    Hey love, you are by no means alone in this. I give you immense credit for trying so hard, no matter where you go you will do amazing things.

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